Monday, December 22, 2014

Life



I don't know what it is but sometimes you really do all your best and then "karma is a fucking bitch"
You always get stabbed in the back for being a person that just cares too much. 

I am a person that always goes all in. Once I started something I always try to do the best I can and then when I am certainly doing something absolutely selfless then this is the time when suddenly some person needs to come along and let all its anger out on me... But stupid me I start caring even worse so I get sad and cuddle myself under a blanket trying to figure out what I've done wrong to the world that it has to kick my ass every time I try to be nothing but a good person.
Maybe that is faith's way of showing me that I definitely need to grow up and that I should stop running around with my Disney dreams and expectations.
Once a person in my life told me to stop living in my own Disney World but what if I don't want to. What if my made up world is so much better then the one we actually live in... I don't want to be this sincere person that puts its wealthy job and good education first. I want to also be creative and enjoy life with my beloved ones.
So well, I think this is the reason why I am talking to you now... You get me. You know how tuff it is to be a flying colored parrot and be locked in in a cage. My only place where I can truly be myself and show you all about me, is here. It is my little world on this tiny one in a million world wide web.

Merry Christmas!

xx Nicki





















Boots: Monica Stalvang
Bag: Big Buddha
Dress & Scarv: Ross




26 comments:

  1. Love this dress on you! Such a lovely print. I feel your pain in this post so keep the faith. Good for you for believing in your dreams and keeping your creativity alive. You are special! Merry Xmas. :)

    http://www.kathrineeldridge1.wordpress.com

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  2. Lovely dress!

    Mel
    http://girlandthepolkadot.blogspot.com/

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  3. Such a cute look. Loving the mod feel of your boots. Great era.

    www.stylegonerogue.com (new post)

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  4. I'm in love with your dress! Such a great look!

    www.RainyAllie.com

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  5. This is such a lovely outfit & I adore the boots! I love your style. xx

    Beyond the Velvet | Fashion, Beauty and Lifestyle blog

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  6. Great pictures..and your dress is so pretty!

    Jolahogg.blogspot.ie

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  7. Love your pictures and dress! Their so pretty!!

    xxx

    Curvybird.blogspot.nl

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  8. Your dress is delightful, the whole look is very chic dear! Following you on bloglovin, your blog is cool and inspiring!
    Baci,
    Coco et La vie en rose - Valeria Arizzi

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  9. I am going trough a tough time right now, but all I can do is trying to stay positive! It's always much easier after a good, well deserved crying session, haha :P
    Love your look anyways, esp those boots!

    Printed or Plain

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  10. Uiii! Das Kleid ist ein Traum! Total mein Stil hihi ;)
    Und deinen Post finde ich auch sehr berührend. Schön und traurig zugleich. Ich habe mich sehr in deinen Worten wiedergefunden, denn leider (? leider oder Gott sei dank, das ist wohl die Frage) bin ich auch sehr gefühlvoll und mitfühlend - und so schön das Gefühl ist, wenn man anderen Personen beisteht und sie glücklich machen kann, tja, manchmal ist man dann auch eben der Boxsack, der alles abfangen muss. ABER! - Ich mag meine kleine positive Blase sehr gerne und halt daran fest! Es muss einfach so Herzensmenschen wie uns geben und es wird uns sicher belohnt :)

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  11. When I was younger I found it hard to balance idealism and realism in my personal life. I was raised to be a certain way and with manners and it was shocking to me when I found out most other americans around my age were not. It really put strains on my relationships and does even to this day!

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  12. Love the ribbon design of the boots, so cute! Very pretty dress too! And totally understand your desire to be creative and enjoy life to the fullest, it is the same for me too! Thanks for sharing your thoughts!

    Prudence
    www.prudencepetitestyle.wordpress.com

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  13. the skirt is super cool :)

    xxx

    anna from http://stylelovely.com/mimundonormal/

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  14. You look lovely....

    http://simpleplaintruth.blogspot.co.uk/

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  15. Superb shots :) I think you must share your photos on www.voguedrobe.com, too :)

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  16. Thank you for your lovely comment on my blog.
    Loving the dress and the photos! Amazing contrast :)
    Merry Christmas! ^_^

    http://rockthisrunway.blogspot.co.uk/

    xx

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  17. I still believe in my Disney Dreams and have been told countless times to step out of the fairytale world I live in but I like to think that those dreams might still come true.. If not the big ones then maybe the little ones.. So keep the faith! You're not alone...

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  18. I love your look, the flower pattern dress is so beautiful, and perfect look with that boots. And you're so gorgeous.
    xoxo
    Liza
    www.lizacorner.blogspot.com

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  19. sometimes negative comments can teach us a lesson,l but sometimes we should just forget abozut them because they are clearly only intended to make us feel bad. Don't worry too much girl :) Nice pictures.

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  20. You looks absolutely beautiful in this outfit. Love all the colors

    www.thefashionfraction.com

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  21. Lovely backpack :) M&MFASHIONBITES mmfashionbites.blogspot.gr

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  22. Love your choice of backpack and boots! Stunning photographs as well! x

    Cynthia
    www.pinchofchic.com

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